Tuesday, December 22, 2009

Sore Neck And Headache Exercise

Updating This Thing! (:

Well, you could say today? Ok I admit it strange House: (
Today I spent all afternoon watching The Confessions Tour and the Sticky and Sweet Tour de Madonna
was boring because I had no Internet! = /
Thursday is Christmas already! and really do not know if I'm happy or not! = /
Maybe if perhaps not!
I want to go fast these days, yet no!
want to see new eps of House, but I want more holidays!
Until the next time I remember that it exists
and comes to upgrade ... (:
as I finish this post with this photo of Lisa
I love this photo
looks beautiful \u0026lt;3

PS: My English is very bad then stop to write in English! (:

Friday, December 18, 2009

Song Phrases For Tattoos

Prologo-Haunted Bella.

more intelligent men know that there is no clear distinction between real and unreal, that things are as we see them only under physical and mental delicate instruments through which perceive.
But the prosaic materialism of the majority condemns as madness the flashes of vision that sometimes tear the veil of common vision and obvious empiricism.

Lovecraft "The Tomb.


are not among them. Only see what they want to see. Not know they are muertos.-M. Night Shyamalan.



Prologue.



The probability that an average American sees a ghost is one against a million. The thousandth possibility that lightning fall on you.
Ninety-nine percent of people, given that life expectancy is seventy years old, born, live peaceful and quiet lives and die without having had a setback with the supernatural.
say that I belong to that strange and misplaced one percent is very optimistic. Not that I have encountered the supernatural once in my life. I would describe it as falling off a dark bottomless pit.
Skeptics, with their rational minds only guided by what their senses tell them, say, politely, I'm a hook.
The matter freaks talk about serendipity. View
your first appearance to the twelve, it can be considered as such. Supernatural make your livelihood, no. The right word, given my family history and circumstances of the facts, as predestination.
"Schizophrenia? "Alcohol hardened? "Junkie? ... I wish this would have been easier for me. I think that can be defined as a twist of fate.
And here is my work, or fate, or curse, make that one percent of people who were missing have been affected by the "strange" page and pass them returning to that vast majority who do not have time to dwell on hear scary stories. And then the ghosts disappear from their peaceful lives, I esfumaré with them, like a shadow treat me ... bothers


~ * ~

Chicago, 2005.


The rain hitting the glass produced a hypnotic effect on me. For most people, was bothered. But even in this sense, I ran counter to the majority.
Today was my lucky night. If he could sleep more than four hours, would exceed my weekly record.
Although used to the insomnia habit, had to admit that it relaxing to take a truce to take hold in the next few sleepless nights. And the music
encompassed in the rain outside.
While my eyes were closed, my tongue was able to enjoy the sweet taste of luck. Not long trash program sessions, suitable only for the unemployed, alcoholics, losers or desperate, or great vessels, with little depth, filled to the brim of vodka with lemon juice to the bottle to the side to be renewed.
smiled at the thought that this might not need a drink to get away from my ugly reality. A reality non-existent for the rest of the world, but too tangible for my own welfare. I winced nasty to my lips. That was the kind of thinking that I should not have before trying to sleep.
My body was adjusting to the covers and clings to the black leather sofa, my thoughts were fading.
Only the shadow of a little reminder of the review my last course of the race, clouding my mind. That would be next week, therefore, would be over one hundred and sixty-eight hours to begin to raise even.
Tonight was my night.
Of course, it was me, Edward Cullen, and luckily I was elusive in most cases. And when my phone started vibrating, I realized that my wonderful night's sleep was fading with every sound of it colliding with the wood of my desk.
"Shit, shit, shit!" Cursed mentally as I stood upside down and covered his head with a pillow.
The noise persisted and I, throwing the pillow far away, I gave up resigning myself to spend one more night with the shopping channel presenter sterilized bottle of vodka in hand. Kicking
sheets and got up to give you buzz to the other end of the room.
- For your sake I hope it's not you, damn pixie!-Gritted between his teeth as I came the image of my sister Alice.
was warned more than enough, it was not a good idea to call at odd hours of the night, despite my late-night hours. Even
could remember my threats:
"I warn you, Alice Cullen, not a single call after eleven. If you do, you and I will slowly kill the iPod on full blast to hear no the message you should convey to Jasper. "
painfully gritted my teeth. Should not bring up that part of me. Not a chance.
I think as take care of Alice without bloodshed had no revenge from beyond the grave ...
Shit ... I had done it again.
But all my bad mood vanished when moving melody rose to the vibrator.
My stretched lips curved into a radiant smile while Strays Do not Sleep echoed around the room.
"a long year has passed since the last time we spoke"
In fact, only four months had passed since the last time we were sitting in Starbucks. And there she, laughing, had been playing tunes from my mobile to find this song.
"This is my song," she whispered as she watched the sparkle in his eyes vanished on a par with his apparent joy. "It is mine and mine alone. Forever. "
... "And before all that, what I miss? ... Did you feel homesick once? "Chanted while trying to alleviate their innermost grief.
Although always had for me the brightest of smiles, I could sense that something was wrong.
She did not want to talk about. Only charge that the time spent together, my world was less dark and bright part of your character pass to illuminate my surroundings.
But it was becoming a flashlight without batteries. Spent all their energies on their smiles just for me, while the penalty would eat inside.
That stupid married man. Surely it would have a thousand excuses why they could not divorce his wife while he spent his few hours of the night, in the back seat of a car or a room in a roadside motel, playing with her, and then return to home, lying next to his wife while the semen, still hot, lay inside her unhappy lover.
"He is important to me ... "he hesitated at my questioning look, justifying the unjustifiable. "I help my career."
was the end of the conversation that I always spent more limited time.
"Give up your dream and be happy with me." Were the words that was on the tip of the tongue and died in my mouth. He was too selfish and would prefer that these were lost between her fleshy lips as mine desperately wanted a melting up into God knows where ... But it was worth being awake at night only to come back to savor its richness on your lips that stretched from time to time.
"I can not get used to this ... "I ignored
shake my hand when picking up the phone and gave the talk key hoping my voice did not betray my excitement:
- God, I cried even without saying hello .- Where have you been all this time? Perhaps you've come to imagine ...
"I'll explain everything when you're at home, Cullen," she interrupted sharply. I seemed to hear her violently expel the air and spoke again: - Oh, God! I'm so sorry ... I know when to bother is unforgivable, but I passed through here ... this is ridiculous! "Sollozó." I'm ugly and you do not you deserve all of this crap, but I need ... I need you so ...
I bit my tongue not to drop a word over and demand an explanation. Everything would be easier if reassured.
"No problem" I said as I went to my closet and began to take ropa. "Tell me where you are and I'll pick.
"Do not bother. I'm calling from a pay phone in front of your home. I'll be there in a couple of minutes ...
"Perfect. Espero. you-I hung up and I started to find something to cover my nakedness. It was a comfortable practice if they lived alone, but it was a welcome for those who had to see me that situation.
Despite all the confidence that we have among us, would not let my intentions as clear. Not without good explanation. I found a pair of sweatpants, I was getting skipping while reproached me not being more proactive and have everything upside down, starting with my notes on forensic psychology, even the empty bottles of Jack Daniels.
was too late to even think about it, and rang the intercom. I opened the door without asking and just thirty seconds she was in front.
I was unable to conceal that I was gasping for air as my eyes fell on his imposing presence. I bit my lip to think sanely a decent greeting and not a college stoned babbling by its neighbor across the street.
That was quite an ordeal. It was so difficult to maintain sanity when I had my eyes occupied, rapture, with every part of your body. From her long, silky blonde hair red to long and curvy body.
was so absorbed in her lips, pink and full, I did not see his face flushed and her large blue eyes flooded with tears.
- Oh I cried to see her mourn confusing without finding the right words at a time like this.
Her tears could only mean one thing. Two-year history of sex and lust night shattered. He supposed I would have said his wife would like my best friend was a blur in her monotonous life.
should be relieved and happy because that would allow Tanya to return to rebuild their lives. But his pain was so real and present that I dared not even think about it.
She needed me and I was not going to fail.
As soon as I opened my arms in his direction, Tanya was released to me and hugged me while her sobs made her body tremble.
seemed so vulnerable that I hesitate to embrace it and bring it closer to me.
discovered that it had when part of your skin and hair brushed against my breast makes a pleasant tingle. Soon my chest and licked his body trembling from the cage that had formed my arms. I feared he would drown when he heard her sobs.
I said nothing. Or it could be that not even remember. Maybe I just hum a lullaby or whistled through his teeth to try to reassure her.
As the minutes went by, I noticed that all his muscles were more relaxed and no longer crying. Only his breathing was shallow.
I put my cheek on his crown, sucking, unconsciously, the smell of coconut shampoo used since high school. "I spent
whispered.
His answer was a loud gasp.
I left his body, only to see his face while posing an arm around his waist and posed one of my hands on her cheek.
"Well, I think I know how I can corner the problem tonight," he wiped his tears with his fingers but would have liked it to my lips .- Drink? "I offered. Forgot
penalty for a second and laughed.
"Tell everything I suggested Eristoff Black travieso." It's better than a cure nagging. No matter how outrageous they are your sins, he will never tell you anything.
be laughed again:
-Yes-I got the razón. "I think one can not make me drink more damage.
I came to embrace.
"Edward, my Edward ... you're always here when you need-musitó." I need you so much ... I looked at the bottle
mortification.
Farewell to my seventy-two hours of sobriety.


~ * ~ - Edward! "Feigned shocked to see how I filled to the brim with the third glass of vodka, I'm supposed to be the guest!
- Sure, "I let out a giggle typical of the spark was beginning to be emerging.is" This is a tribute to your person ...
only sighed heavily.
"Edward, this can not be good for your liver-I recommended running his fingers along the edge of the cup so distracted. I noticed that he had not drunk nada. "I see you at this time, has not changed its attitude ...
- For what, Tanya?" Inquired putting on the defensive. I was wondering what the hell was going. The one with the problem was her. She wanted to talk. I knew that was what failed me, and accepted it. I had no other choice.
-Edward, Is it true that what happens to you is so horrible that you have to fuck life?
I drank half a glass of a drink without feeling the burn of alcohol. I wanted to think coolly before releasing all the atrocities that my mind fuzzy processing. I made a gesture simulating a smile and gestured the words slowly: "You're right
, Tanya," felt like my voice filled with sarcasm, - what happens to me is that had he been born in the seventeenth century, I probably would led to the stake. Or in the nineteenth century, I had been admitted to a mental hospital with a straitjacket ... But darling, we are in the twenty first century! ... Give me pills to stay controlled and sedated, and problem solved ... Cullen and The Stooge is under control, "a theatrical gesture and I finished drink the last sip.
"We're not in school, Edward. Those days are over and this is Chicago, Forks not. Look for help. I know there is someone to help you ... Or maybe someone knows Carlisle ... I do not think that your problems will disappear by sinking in liters of alcohol ... "He confronted me and started to shake my shoulder with his finger," You do not know it is to have real trouble, boy!
- Would you change for me at this moment? "The rete.
"Tell me where you have to firmar." I returned desafío. "Maybe it's disconcerting, but what you have is a gift, Edward. And if people do not want to understand is your problem ... If they do not ...
- Tanya, "I stopped short warning with an eye to stop, ... Enough is enough! These phrases are very good in the novels, but this is real fucking life. What you see is what exists. And if I have to resort to alcohol to adapt to them, I will.
"Sometimes, you're so stupid and blind you do not see how special you are.
- You said, special!
- Do not know shit! "Was altered.
- Sure, "he exclaimed as Miss Tanya knows how to get out of trouble! Because when one has just come out, you're getting into another ... Now, you just break up with your married friend, you'll go console with another, does not it? ... First cry on my shoulder for the loss and curse to all men ... And after a few days back on track and you find another worse than before ... You've been doing this since high school, and nothing has changed. So do not give me the favor of sermons.
He looked at me sourly. His face was expressionless, but his eyes sparkled. Began to breathe faster, and smoothed the ends with your fingers it was a sign that he was angry.
Me I filled another glass of lemon vodka. He knew he had hurt his feelings, and at bottom, a pang of regret I punctured his chest. But he had ventured too in my wound and she knew that there were limits should not startle.
I just play with my glass without breaking the strained silence, listening to Tanya's pants rubbed each other, as a result of movement of their legs to be restless. "You think you
listo. breaking She decided to end this atmosphere of uncertainty to see that I would not hacerlo." But I have not said anything about what happened to my uncle married.
"You do not tell me anything. Your pattern is very predictable. What have you done since you were sixteen years old and had problems with ... that looked like Eric York intellectual .... You were with a couple of weeks and when I found his girlfriend in full fatigues, came to seek and to mourn over my shoulder ... and since then has followed the same behavior ... You will seek them and I drink all the shit ...
You do not know shit, Cullen. -Siseó. "You have no idea what this is about ... And you refresh your memory, there was the girlfriend of Eric York that I wanted to hit. It was Tyler Crowley. Eric wanted to see me if he was gay ... Well, at first it seemed, but when Tyler appeared, finally officially confirmed ...
- That altruistic you are!
"Very.
"Edward," remarked my name so that you pay attention- I have not broken with him.
Despite trying to remain calm and indifferent, the nerves came into my fingers and the circles carried out on the edge of my glass were irregular.
Being unable to say a word, I stood in silence noticing the yellow liquid in my glass. Tanya
interpreted my silence as a rebuke:
"You do not understand ... I wanted to, but things are complicated and now I can not really ... I can not ... Even though I no longer feel anything for him, I am unable to finish
with this ... "You've got your role in Hollywood and you feel indebted to him," I teased.
"This is much more complicated of what you're saying ... "she raised her hands to her head, stroking his hair with nervous gestures" ... It's not about to let him or not ... We've gotten into a very fat shit! Well, there have been several droppings, but one that beats the rest ... oh, God!
was not what I said, if you do not like what he said, which made me have a bad feeling.
My anger dissipated and I felt terrible anguish only to look and see it in such a state of despair.
I grabbed her wrists and spread her hands on her face and put down his lap. Drew strange figures on your skin with my finger.
- What happened? "I was surprised that my voice sounded safe and serene. Concerns may buffer the effects of alcohol on the brain.
let out a breath and shook his head:
"I can not get you in all this shit ... really I can not!
"Well I think coming here and that I've done is put in the trash," he Explain.-Only you have the option to tell me.
shook his head.
- What could you do that bad? "He was doing me a knot in my stomach to think that the bastard bastard had gotten into some murky affair ... style for drug trafficking or sucio. a business-Tanya, could you go to jail? "she said in a whisper my most intimate fears. Tanya
guffawed hysterically at the word prison. Should interpret it as I was in shock at the idea. But her eyes, something much more sinister came to my head and something very cold through my back ... What was it that bad?
- And you're the one with the special gift? "Replied wryly. Suddenly, I withdraw my hands and stood up, to start walking around the living ... You're not even going through your head that can happen? Jail! ... In prison would have the certainty that there ever would, for many years that passed ... But this has been ... ufff! ... I will not have enough life to clean all this crap ... "made a great stride .- ... take two weeks without sleep, I feel anxious all the time, the food is a knot and I feel like somebody ... "again I leave the hair with a nervous laugh, ... I do not know how I'll end with this ... is all so surreal! ...
beginning to get an idea of where I was going to leave this matter, and the first thing I did was go to a store to buy a 38 gauge and fill the lead to that ... I I ended up thinking better after a few seconds. Tanya I need her and there was no question of going to jail.
ended up lying still and stared at me as if trying to guess my thoughts. But my speech was reduced to the perplexity and impotence. I hoped not ask me to read her thoughts. Was impossible ... at least at that level.
Finally, finally shrugged his shoulders and whisper-Haber
come here does not lead me to anything, "To my surprise, took his bag and his jacket and prepared to leave.
took me a millisecond to realize that if she went, take long to see her again. That idea can not support your lack of news for a few long months, I reacted instantly and fly off in their direction, without being aware of having turned the table and with it the glasses of vodka.
I managed to catch up a storm just before it opened the door and crawled toward me while resisting:
- I'm staying! "He started yelling, I was sure that a neighbor called the police for the scandal we were giving .- I can not make more damage! ...
Abruptly, he turned to face. Wanted to tell me face everything that was saved. He gasped, and partly her sweet breath mixing with mine and the brightness of his eyes eclipsed any look. Still, must tell:
- Because it's too late! "The Chill-face protection.In say you do not want to hurt me more, but you do it every time you come here and believe me hope that we can do something together then disappear and I wonder how many months or years it will take to re-create me hopes of seeing the hours are broken into pieces and re-emerged only to return to break. Tell me, Tanya, Is that fair? "Despite my efforts, I felt like I broke the VOICE: If this time is final, the door opens and she disappears forever. If not, do not leave me with the expectation, please. Tanya
stopped moving and panting and bit his lips gesture that was interpreted as a response thinking.
But such a response was not prepared, or at least not mentally, because my body reacted to perfection when they released her wrists from my grip and placed her arms around my neck, clasping his hands on my neck, tangling their long thin fingers with strands of my hair, narrowed his eyes and opened his moist lips coming closer to me, until they are stamped on mine, molding to perfection.
While my mind was blocked by the accumulation of sensations, each part of my body began to take their own life.
My lips parted and my tongue out of my mouth, groping for hers, pressing her lips impulsively to accede to the passage of this to his mouth. Opposed no resistance and soon I touched his tongue with the tip of mine for a first scan, which ended in a sensual pulse where the only battle we wanted to win was to steal the breath of each other.
I took off my lips to yours only that they started a path of kisses and soft bites for each section of skin not covered by your clothes bothers. Al
closer to her, brushed my neck with something metal, producing a small burn.
I walked away slightly, and put it in the palm of my hand that strange pendant silver heart-shaped symbol intelligible. A legacy of his distant Russian descent.
"Never get separated from him," I said.
"Take a piece of my soul with him," murmured quitándomelo hands and turning his face to mine and kissed me passionately.
My hands began to take their own life and began to slip from his neck to the middle of her back where her shirt did not permit a detailed maneuver. Frustrated breath between the hollow of his neck and shoulder. Suddenly I felt a tingling like an electric shock when the tips of his fingers began sliding down my back.
At first it was just a light touch, that as the breaths were accelerating, the beating of our hearts beating a hundred miles an hour, and the saliva off each piece of our bodies, were increased to pace themselves with those, even I felt a painful pleasure as she scratched the tip of the nail skin covering my shoulder blade.
was a sign: the dress should have disappeared.
Therefore, fast and rude gestures, I was unbuttoning his shirt and the button of his jeans, pushing it down. I figured that fell by the muffled sound that caused the crash to the ground, my lips were too busy in parts of silky pink flesh was exposed to my tongue. I knew how I had always imagined. A strange mix of sweet and salty.
your bra straps provided the contact barrier of your skin and my tongue. As my hands were molded at the waist and they were very willing to move there, my mouth and my teeth did the job for her until they fell by gravity to the middle of the arm. Tanya, panting and eager, broke a rare and painful, inches from me, and removing the hands of my sweaty body and throw it to your back and help with the task of unfastening the lace bra. Soon my ordeal
thirty seconds taste his skin, I gave the award to resignation, as my eyes marveled at the sight of her breasts exposed in front of me.
I swallowed hard and with effort I forced myself to look into her eyes. I loved the act of biting his lip to avoid laughing, and then grinning like a return invitation to throw your arms around my neck. I covered her small wet kisses all over his face from his nose to his lips, moving down her cheeks.
Unconsciously, my hand rested on her breasts, and while my mouth is conformed to his, kissing, sucking, chewing and savoring every section of his lips and breathed a tickle me that the electricity produced way to the last pore of my body. My hands massaged without an attempt at tenderness, her breasts, and rudely and without care, pinched her nipples.
- Ah, hit a little cry, more pleasure than pain.
Abruptly pulled my face to his, and he briefly walked away from it. I looked straight in the eye to make a silent protest, but they shone fun. Rested his hands on my cheeks and pulled down towards the valley of her breasts to put my head in the hole and turned to cling to my hair. I covered with kisses the way up to the mound of her pink nipple and hear his insistent call for treatment, clung to my lips on it and the tip of the tongue began to cover to suit taste so sweet that peculiar mix of sweet and salty.
She pulled my hair and I understood as a warning that continued maneuvering in that sense, so I did exactly what he had done to her lips, licking, sucking, chewing delighting in its texture and flavor, first with one and then the other.
moaned loudly and I was glad that I was the cause of such a beautiful sound.
To my surprise, I felt like one of his little withdrew into tracksuit pants to the point of my body more excitable than in those he was close to its maximum strength.
A couple of strokes of the fingers of Tanya showed me how sensitive I was. Tanya
"I gasped into her ear while she continued with her work, the pair down my pants. When they arrived at my ankles, I started kicking to get rid of them and be fully exposed to it ...
Rubbin skin to skin, breath to breath, sweat to sweat ...
At the limit of my strength, I managed to move it to the wall and corralled between this and my body so that no hint of pleasure that escaped from jail and panting sweaty bodies.
Adrenaline poured escaped me at the same time we started to rub our hips trying not to lose that level of dependence we had for each other. His mouth was wet and pleading my kisses, his privacy was the same way, warm and wet. Suitable indicator that was more than ready for me.
And she gave the preliminaries completed, he raised his leg and twisted my hip. He repeated the same with the other leg, and lift your butt, I noticed the soft texture of the skin, thanking me rid of the work of removing the thong.
And with the few rags that I had of chivalry, the transport to the couch, where a push, more or less sudden, the grave.
Tanya, with a smile absent and legs apart, I took her hand and invited me to enter it, lying on its curved body and molding each part of this to its winding nooks ...

~ * ~

was three in the morning and my eyes were still wide open. It was assumed that this should not happen after a day of brutal sex and fulfilling.
admitted that sex had been brutal, but not satisfactory. And it was because he had anonymous or boring. Quite the opposite. Neither could say that it had failed because we were the wrong people.
had wanted to be with Tanya in this way, and many more, since he was sixteen. But she had always eluded me and I did not push the limits of friendship to be near me, even though my heart was breaking bit by bit every time she was moving away from me.
And once believed would have it, loving it with my body and my essence, she showed distant and absent.
not in the physical sense. She had responded to each of my fondling, kissing, licking and savagely demands alongside tender. But something inside her that I did not feel that was one hundred percent me. His body was yet mine, but his mind a thousand miles away from me ... Would you still think of him?
And while doubts gnawed me and made a knot at the top of my stomach, the maneuver perfectly hear the service, open the lid of the toilet and almost choke on the arches that gave him his vomiting. I bit my lip to try to soften the bitterness of my disappointment.
How bad was all this?
"Sorry," apologized. I had not heard out of service, "the drink I had to feel bad.
-Claro. "I had not drunk nada." I hope you feel better.
"I'm sorry I woke up.
With Perez, paragraph head from the pillow, and looked at her, my sleepy body active at once. Tanya was fully dressed, combed, he had buttoned his jacket and was about to grab the bag. My heart hit my chest painfully. Know the meaning of this ... I had seen him more often. But I never used to say goodbye.
Tanya looked at me and sighed when he saw my gesture of anxiety.
I can not stay here, Edward. I will not flee, "I said more. paciente. voice" I have to solve this by hook or by crook ...
- Does it have to be now? "I could not stop the pain seeps into my voice.
-The sooner the better, he urged.
"Well, that means that once again I have to say goodbye.o-still had not gone and hurt me with all my soul.
smiled sadly for a moment and turned to leave the bag in the chair, to sit on the couch that had witnessed our night of passion. I took her hand and stroked my cheek as if it were a mother and her toddler.
"This time, Edward prometió.-I return to you ... but first, I will leave everything well tied. Then talk about how to build a new life the two together, put her head on my shoulder and whispered in my ear: "But in return you have to promise me something, Edward.
"Anything" Despite everything, I could not keep anything.
"Promise me you will wait for me. You'll be here for me ... in every way. Because no matter what happens or how late. You can see me in every way, right? I find you again ...
I kissed her forehead and quickly grabbed the bag and walked out the door as it was carried soul the devil.
I combed his hair with his fingers in a gesture of despair.
By chance I looked back at the electronic clock.
four in the morning.
How many nights would last this insomnia?




~ * ~ Had spent twenty glasses of tequila? Perhaps fifteen of vodka? ... What the hell that really mattered?
She had returned and was in the bathroom.
had been made to pray much ... So many nights in black and white! ... Exactly, had come to see the three-thirty in the morning forward, thrice. For three nights and days.
But she was here.
could hear the shower running tap and singing voice:
"Remember that night between the same stars ...
... We are in a red car you're sleeping next to me ... "
definitely could be one Tanya.
As was customary at me, I fought with sheets and not worry about wear something over, I went to the bathroom. In the darkness of the house, the atmosphere was turning cold and gray. The steam from the shower hit me the body. And a strange odor, metal and salt mixture turned my stomach.

... "The back and forth in the headlights" ...
I put my hand on the doorknob before opening, a shiver ran through my skin, leaving static and ice cream. It was as if my instinct whispers that I was not going to like anything they would see.
... "I could have saved ?"...
I discarded all my fears and, more instinctive than rational, I opened the door.
The steam clouded my eyes and I could not see anything. Was only able to hear his voice while singing the echo crashed into the tiles.
... "That could've betrayed ?"...
I walked very carefully, as if at a given time was to disturb the reverential silence that was in the room, broken only by the drops of water crashing into the surface of the bath.
... "I want to burn this movie ...
I stopped suddenly when I was on the floor spots to crimson dyed their whiteness.
With a lump in my throat, my eyes fixed where the tub was somehow made out the silhouette of Tanya still on the site.
... "I can not get used to this" ... I beat two strides
space distanced us, and as the fog was dissipating, I stood before my eyes the gruesome spectacle.
Tanya was there, or what was left of her, pale and lifeless, wrapped in red-dyed water completely as a result of his blood be shed. His face was completely unrecognizable because of the cuts received the neck was wide open on a par with her dolls. Fully a shadow of its former self.
The music sounded like a funeral march ...
... "By the blue blue sky" ... I pasted


jumped off the couch when the phone rang. Was just a bad dream. Or so he wanted to repeat myself to take away all the fear that had built up inside me.
That was his song. Tanya was safe ...
I jumped up off the couch and looked for my phone like crazy while the music was increasing in volume ...
- Shit, I cried. Where hell was the motive?
Finally, I finished finding from a jumble of clothing.
And as expected, when I went to pick up the phone went off.
I missed that when looking at the screen, there was no record of the call.
The phone started vibrating in my hand and blinking of an envelope told me he had a message.
I opened it with more eagerness than he intended and the feeling that something was very wrong I was not the head ... and much more when reading:

"Edward has happened ... Do not worry, it does not prevent me pick you. Wherever you are, you'll find ... and you'll find me ... where I want it to be ...

T.

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

24 Inch Impala Rims For Sale

This is my second day here! / This's my second day here!

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Tuesday, December 15, 2009

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Friday, December 4, 2009

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Broken wings (2ª parte)

Some humans looked at me with pity as I saw brisk walking.

- Poor girl! "I heard a woman whisper" It's going to freeze!

tried not to laugh in your face. If she knew.

was not cold. I myself was cold, like these beautiful statues of ice that were used to decorate gardens.

However, a bitter feeling seized me. She had not noticed how beautiful she was. I was hurt ... Oh, God! How I hated that feeling! I was Rosalie Hale and should be above that.

passed by my eyes flashes of lights along with music and colors. But it was something that was so foreign to me.

impassive even passed through the crowd.

Rich filled the trunk of his car with lots of gift package, while smoothing their clothes to get ready to attend a big party.

The poor were limited to recall the spirit of Christmas to get some money to move forward.

There was not a charity rag on me to his unfortunate situation.

His heart was beating inside his chest and every breath of life wasted in the mist expelled by breathing or speaking. How could not they realize that something as valuable as a human life? To me the only thing left was the future. And a very long and dark future.

nonsense I realized that my place was not, and that the steps he was taking, I headed to a particular location.

The ghost of Christmas past whispered to me that I had to go back there. The place where I had been happier.

That was stronger than me. If he could not return to spend a happy Christmas, at least the attempt to revive in my memory.

How would my family? What would have taken my loss?

As time was of little comfort, but I wish my mother understood in some way, that despite everything, I was well, and wherever he was, my thoughts were with them.

was not so foolish to appear so suddenly. He knew the rules perfectly, and least wanted, was to condemn my parents and brothers for my silly sense of nostalgia. But somehow, I would notice and they would understand my message even without seeing me, hear me. But they would know. This idea

eased me of my worth and every step closer to me what was my home, my heart seemed to be accelerated, even if physiologically impossible. Arriving at

garden belonging to my house, I was surprised to see such care and filled with lights, but even more that there was a lot of late model cars, parked. A crowd of people dressed in elegance and distinction going in one direction. In my house What was supposed to this? I followed that path

follow their direction as the sound of their laughter and their ridiculous conversations, if her dress was of better quality than twinkie, or Somebody's niece wearing the same dress last year because her husband had ruined with the crisis, or that the party would be better than last year for not wearing those pesky kids at the party ...

... Fiesta? My parents were having a party? After all what happened? It was assumed that this Christmas would not be happy for them.

I had to go there to find out what the heck was going on there.

But in trying to get one of those ladies gave me a cold stare that left me static on the site.

Supposedly, I could have paralyzed or panicked. It was a thousand times more impressive and exceeded my strength to hers.

terror seizes me, despite all those advantages. Am

would have known?

not seem so.

simply gave me a reproachful look for the simple fact of being there. I glanced up and down, and keep track of your eyes, I found the problem.

had left home with only the clothes: wear high-heeled boots, a black skirt frayed and stained with mud at the edges and a white shirt completely soaked. He did not need a mirror to see how chaotic my hair was loose and wet.

And so that left me terrified inquisitorial gaze. It was not a threat. Clue. Simply not invited.

passed a rare and eternal seconds even stopped looking at me and went to the comfort and warmth of the place, leaving me totally deserted amid the snow.

With no one around me, I walked to the swings where so many hours of my childhood was spent, and sitting I witnessed this gruesome spectacle of gold.

At that time, gold seemed so cold and lifeless.

And I wanted heat. That heat was missing in my body and I missed.

And through that golden bubble filled with Christmas music, champagne, tasty food and clothing of past designs, was my mother. My bright, beautiful and radiant mother frivolous purple dress and a glass of champagne in hand, being the center of the party. And my father, drawing and elegantly dressed in a tuxedo, while gloating to people of higher economic level.

was useless to ask what had happened. If stirred my memories, you may find the answer.

could still remember that Christmas when I was ten, I was lying in bed, crying and screaming because a car had hit a snowball, my cat, and the last thing I wanted was to go to a party Christmas fun.

But my mother, ignoring my tears, overwhelmed entered my room, took my best dressed of the closet I pulled off the bed and I undressed for a bath. After she was commissioned to dress and comb. My cheeks hurt when she pinched me to extol the my porcelain skin scarlet with them.

took me to a mirror and said,

"This is the secret to success, Rosalie," she said mirror image. "Let your tears in the mirror, and make your mirror smile and get it out to the outside. So you will always be what people want to be. And depending on what you say, that will help you to rise or fall. Remember, image is everything. "

was a stark reality. My mother had given the same value as a dead cat, and sorry for my loss to only consume the socially respectable. Then I would never have existed. If they had, it would only be a curse for social advancement.

few words, diametrically opposed, came to my mind:

"What if I tell you right now I want to study medicine?" I heard myself ask derisively of Carlisle, as he prepared his utensils his briefcase.

had been a rather rhetorical question. He sensed that I reply that I had to consider whether it was nice and polite.

As his calm response left me totally stunned:

"As you know, Rosalie, who is going to cost more than to humans by the issue of control of blood," he said quietly. I blinked twice before realizing that he spoke quite seriously. "But I see in you the necessary toughness to get it. Will be, as Edward, a wonderful doctor. You only need what you propose. "

My father took her hand, with calculated finesse, my mother and placed her lips on the knuckles in an attempt to kiss quite painful.

A stinging sensation in his eyes reminded me that at a glance, even a minimal gesture, Esme was able to demonstrate almost reverential love she felt for her husband. And it was so beautiful that could cause the tears to my eyes that it lacked.

out the lip in an attempt to face that could not be regarded not smile when I saw my brothers, making pathetic attempts to please that crowd, playing the piano so bad that I imagined the features and made by the Edward ache to listen.

sighed as I swung and watched as the snow fell on me.

Suddenly, everything went dark and I had a vision of myself, change of scenery, in a gloomy forest, and as was customary, snowing hard.

Seeing me dressed like a man, in jeans and shirt wide, tracking and sniffing the air, watching quietly with eyes red, I knew immediately that this picturesque scene was my first hunt.

know that I watched and tried to control it and be good. But there was no problem. There were no humans around, and I controlled the situation. Or so it seemed to me.

Maybe it was the rapid course of the twilight. Or the snow falling on my wrist and melting into it.

I was completely stiff and an accumulation of sensations possessed my mind and body.

Everything was too fast. Like lightning.
tearing fabric
... ... ... Noise

metal buttons falling to the ground ...

... A terrible weight on my body ... ...

breath burning my face ...

... A mixture of odors from the alcohol, herbal soap, cologne and sweat face ...

... cursing in my ear ... ... Laughter

breaking my soul ... ... Sollozos



contents ... ... Something cold and sharp cutting my skin ... ... Strokes

hurt my body ...

... All kinds of aberrations unimaginable about me ...

... Snowflakes covering what was left of my battered body ...

Everything revolved around me at dizzying speeds, mixing in a host of horrible sensations of smells, sounds, pain, particularly severe pain and shame ...

When I thought I had reached the maximum, I screamed like I was pulling an essential part of me. And then I realized that there was no turning back. For roar that could never be human. My throat was red hot and broke something in me forever.

screaming While I lay down on the leaves curled up and hugging me my legs, moving from side to side.

And then I felt a warm pressure on my hair.

A hand began to Mesar hair and laid her fingers gently on my cheeks. The friction became a gentle caress. My scream was as attenuated as the heat was infiltrated in the area of my body.

And then I wept hard and Edward grabbed me to stick to your body and hug in silence, merely to rock as if I were a baby while I'm singing something that reminded me of a lullaby.

stayed with me until the first rays of sun lit up the forest. Edward

was my placebo but I knew that my ghost just vanish with blood.

My nostalgic smile to that memory became a joke to imagine those two cherubim of blond hair, who were my brothers, share the thirst for revenge that ended with Royce and his friends in the grave with the silent complicity of Edward.

Surely, his beautiful and adored sister Rosalie had become an angel of death and destruction. Someone who should not exist even in its most fanciful dreams.

course, doubted that some of them had burned the wedding dress covered with blood and cleaned the footsteps of my execution so as not to upset Carlisle.

The band fell from my eyes and I realized that there was no turning back.

I could not even wanted to be a beautiful porcelain figurine that had to be displayed to please. I wanted to have a say in all acts of my life.

I was getting convinced how much I would have pretended to have spent Christmas as Rosalie King.

A broken wrist smile as much makeup on her face and wore my suit as Coco Chanel, I would ask them who belong the colony that was steeped in the shirt Royce. Does your secretary or a prostitute in office? There

many broken dreams and many limitations in this new existence. But that night I had closed side to accept that not all changes were to get worse. The

Cullen had accepted me as one of a family, without any conditions, and I thanked her so cruel. He had ruined the party.

Edward was right. There were people who had earned this opportunity and I was missing out.

sighed as she leaned her forehead on the strings suspending the swing. I had no idea how to fix the situation.

And then came the miracle of Christmas. Or maybe they were a message the spirit of Christmas future. The case was in the midst of the snowstorm, an imposing figure appeared out of nowhere, walking slowly and gracefully.

And it was really beautiful with her black coat flapping in the wind highlighting his pale complexion and hair shining bronze in the light of the streets. It was closer to me until it was positioned in front and stood him a smile as he assessed me with his golden eyes.
traits
If I had been so familiar from recent months, he had taken by an angel.
mental
With an invitation, I pointed to sit on the swing that was on my right side, and few moments we sat in silence, carefully watching the pictures that the flakes were in the air.

psyched I did not even ask what he was doing here when it was he who broke the silence:

-Esme and Carlisle kicked me out of house for you to go look. She bit her lip to snap up a smile. "As I left without shelter in the street, you were afraid cogieses you cool and cold.

tried to contain a laugh. As if that were possible!

"For someone so smart, the excuse is pathetic. "I flunked. "Besides, I was the stupid left without shelter. Therefore, if you were to get sick, the stuff of science fiction, this is only my problem. Edward sighed heavily

more breathing room to the cold mist.

"I'm pretty temperamental," I nodded agreeing with him, "and when I get angry, I do say so explosive and the first thing that crosses my mind without considering the consequences of the impact of my words. Then, to come to me of sanity, I analyze the damage they have caused and I feel horrible because I hurt people I care about and something that in reality, I am far from feeling. I do not know what happens. I try to avoid but always talk over the account and end up hurting someone. Fortunately, Carlisle and Esme are so used, which do not take it too seriously, but I've caused too much pain for a boost ...

"Tonight was not you who has lost his temper," I confessed with apologies and repentance. "I've taken the award. I was hateful and I think I may never forgive him.

Edward heard laughing shaking his head:

"Never know what you are capable of supporting Carlisle and Esme. There you have much to fill the quota, dear.
complicity
I smiled and continued talking while drawing shapes with the tip of his shoe:

"I might understand you better and put me in your shoes. In the end, you and I are too similar to be compatible. There is simply no chemistry between us.

"It's the axiom that like poles repel I agreed with him.

"I, like you, I was always the center of my world. "His voice was a touch of nostalgia and I understood he meant. "I was totally alone, and that everything revolved around me. And I gave the appearance that I did not care at all and even I liked all the attention that they were to me. You may not mattered to me three or five years, but after eight years until my last Christmas, I began to ask the same desire for Christmas. Every year, wrote a letter to Santa Claus and ask him to bring me a baby brother or sister. I was tired that my mother always scolded me for my antics. I could tell that the dog had eaten the apple pie, but it had no curtains painted with watercolors, I laughed at the picturesque image and Edward imitated my smile. "And above all, wanted to share with him or her, all the toys I had brought. I always put a Santa Claus that if I had, not too tyrant promised him and protect him always. And every night Christmas remained awake in case she heard the crying of a baby, waiting under the tree to see if there was a crib with a baby for attention. Needless to say that I always had to play alone.

"I think you knew well and knew you were going to torture this little one in a thousand and one ways," I joked.

-elves are ironic, you know? "I shook my head. "They have given me my desire for a convoluted way. I had to go through life to get what they wanted-blinked confused. - You came to our home in an unexpected way and on a night like this. And from the outset, all wanted was desmembrarte, burn and throw your remains into a well ... God, you were so irritating! But from the outset, I hoped, Rose. He put his fingers in the chain where I was and groped mine. I helped with homework and intertwine. Despite our cold skin, I felt incredibly hot. "You were something I miss him and really needed.

had a lot of knots in my throat, my chest was too heavy and I could not breathe, I though it was unnecessary. Surely it was an illusion, but I had the feeling of having too much water in my eyes and it was released through my cheeks. Had gotten someone wanted me as I was. Though upset that my beauty was not captivated.

He just laughed hard at the thought, and stood up offering me his hand to go to shelter on the porch of the house. Whenever

snowing harder and harder.

In no time, I let the hand of my brother ....

"Although I have had brothers on one occasion, I am so happy you're here with me, good and bad. "I confessed. "I admit that I'd miss you if you had missed and that everything would be even more difficult without your presence. "Still needed understand that, although important, was not enough for me. Not completely filled my empty. "But even being selfish, I want more. I need more.

"I understand. "He answered without more. "You need something to propel you forward.

- You've found your pulse? "I asked not knowing if I was going to be somewhat embarrassing.

"As you said, it's just an impulse. But the engine that will help me continue. I'm pretty ungrateful for this, but the image of my mother grows more troubled me in my mind. As time passes, all of it will fade and soon become a blur. Do not remember or smell, or color of your eyes and hair, or the timbre of her voice. But always remember that my father and I were his all for her ... And when my father died from the flu, my mom turned all that on me and keep me safe. All this led him to perceive what Carlisle was already begging him to save me as he only could. She knew that, somehow, I continue forward. And that's the momentum that keeps it afloat.

"I muttered. "But I want my engine. I left too much for this opportunity.

"Sooner or later, Rosalie, will find this engine. "I promised and then he grinned. "But this year, for being poor and have thrown the poor Rudolph to the fire, you might miss kind gift. So keep asking Santa Claus, dear.

have punched him if not stronger than me.

"So you think that even monsters like us, we should be happy?" Inquired sarcastically.

"Being this time of year, say, we really are angels who have broken their wings and, therefore, we can not go to heaven and we have been condemned to remain on earth. But even the limbo beings have a right to our happy Christmas.

I hugged tightly and did I get the warmth of her body.

soon felt like his chest was vibrating and I heard him laugh out loud. I lifted my head to see what made him so funny, and I found ourselves surrounded by young humans, we watched open-mouthed, in the garden of the house. They should come to a party and now were heading to this. He must have heard the beating of their hearts and throat burned me because of the smell of blood.

But actually, I was curious. Why are we watching?

- What is it? "Whispered in the ear of Edward.

He thought the situation very funny. "Well

all women envy you for having me in your arms someone so beautiful, "I set eyes. "And all the men trying to figure out how to carve for the privilege of being with you five minutes. "I gave him a smug smile. I was proud to receive as they accelerated the heart ... all but one. A handsome boy brown curly hair and I smiled sheepishly and sighed every time I looked at Edward.

- Forget about the boy, "Edward was having fun. "He is devising a way to ask if he would spend Christmas under his sheets.

I wanted to be a little more bad that night. I knew that Santa Claus ever forgive me.

Edward intervened to help:

"I can think of something to break their hearts. He looked up and realized.

We were under the mistletoe.

"You know the tradition. He raised an eyebrow.

I made the gesture of swallowing saliva.

Was I really willing? Why not? Just for one night. And he had to admit that while I thought of Edward as a brother, also was the most beautiful that my eyes had seen, and the desires of my body were more powerful than my reasoning. After all, it was of a man. I had my needs. And above all, I was satisfied. Finally I was fascinated by my beauty.

- Kiss me! "He ordered. Total for five minutes could forget the details of the fraternity.

"Close your eyes," she whispered.

Slowly, I did, I passed my tongue over my lips and lifted my chin slightly opening my mouth, sighing, panting, to his lips posing, molding to mine and a tingle go through these.

Tickling happened ... but in my head ... and suddenly I felt her laughter in my hair.

A sense of frustration hit my body. What it seemed even funnier.

I sensed his crooked smile drawn on the skin of my forehead.

"You would not believe it would be so easy, right?" He sneered. "You'll need a lot of Christmas waiting for the miracle to arrive. I'm Edward Cullen and my kisses are not free.

"petulant Cretin!" Cursed him sigh for the Christmas gift was the patience to put up with Edward forever.

had stopped snowing.




~ * ~ (1) The prohibition, in the eighteenth amendment to the constitution, was not repealed until 1933.

(2) Rudolph, according to mythology Christmas is a bright red nose reindeer, head of the nine reindeer pulling the sleigh of Santa Claus. Shortfic

Which Type Of Wood Is The Strongest

Broken Wings.

written for the Christmas contest Contest Cullen FF.net.



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Broken Wings

Happy, happy Christmas, that makes the dreams we remember from our childhood, we remember Grandpa the joys of his youth, and transport the traveler will your fireplace and your sweet home! - Charles Dickens.

~ * ~

"From the moment I walked into that room on the arm of my new fiance, long stalled. Nobody paid attention to the decor, or the delicious Christmas dinner, with its smells soft and suggestive, stimulating the appetite, or the novelty of drinking champagne, that despite the prohibition (1) , ran ; aa pouring all the glasses. I figured this was debíaa Royce and contacts. But that night, not even the big shiny Christmas tree full of Gifts and covered with artificial snow and lighting of candles, I eclipsaríaa me, Rosalie Lillian Hale, my expensive white gown of silk and skin, my beautiful golden hair tied in a tangled cascade thousands of pins that were simulated in my curls, my radiant smile, my flamboyant bouquet of white roses in my hand and my shiny and expensive engagement ring. All this served not only to adorn my person, even when I'm missing anything, I would be more beautiful. It was the center of the party.

But thanks to Royce and all those supplements, I was the representation of the angel Christmas.

And everything else was secondary.

What though minutes before, in my room, had been upset because my friend, Vera, had not been invited to the party? She did not pertenecíaa our class. And would send a nice gift.

What

while my father took us to the house of the King, I was looking out the window and I stumbled on all the poverty that had caused the crisis? They would have wanted. Perhaps that moment, a puncture in my heart I would have remembered that they deserve my compassion. But soon, he would be surrounded by a golden bubble to separate them, inexorably, the gray world of my true colors.

What my mother every time I looked at you teary? She had to be more than aware that I was taught to not be vulgar.

"People looked at me and whispered without disguise? They had every right. They could never get higher than I was.

will speak whatever they wanted while his eyes shone when he saw something so beautiful!

soon felt Royce fingers into my mouth and my mouth and tongue tender texture captured bittersweet:

"Hum", I reveled in the taste, "What is this, Royce?"

"It's a French dish, dear, "she whispered.

"It's the best I've tasted in my life."

"It's just a small pittance," he laughed. "Prepare yourself for the rest of your life, Miss Hale."

"This is the best Christmas of my life," he confessed.

"That let me know next year when you Mrs. King, "gave me a glass of champagne. "For the better times ahead", he proposed a toast. In part, this gesture it was for me. I knew he hated the champagne.

"For the best of times, I gave a few drops of liquid gold that fell into my shoes.

I took this as an omen that I suddenly become a princess. My prince was kneeling before me and offered me a world of comfort and luxury. A world where snow fríoy not exist for me ...

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... curled up on the porch of the window , watched with delight as the snowflakes fell slowly producing a white blanket on the street.

had ambivalent feelings toward the snow.

The snow was the precursor of Christmas, and since she had always that time been waiting impatiently. To the despair of my brothers, it was me who brought me the best gifts. It was always the rebirth of something great was about to happen.

But, the snow had acquired the meaning of the end.

Royce and his friends decided to do away with all my expectations, drunk alcohol and lust, one night it snowed. And the same night that felt like my happy life verging on frivolity, escaped from between my fingers on par with a sigh.

Even if we used the metaphor, I myself was a snowflake.

Beautiful, hard, cold inert.

And despite those gloomy thoughts, he could not turn away from that damn window.

Perhaps those snowy streets full of happy and eager to get home to spend that time with loved ones, I saw one embodiment of the spirit of Christmas past. Those who never held.

was Royce had razóny ironic that this Christmas would be very different from previous ones. I'll bet he never imagined would happen this holiday season under a tombstone ostentatious food for the worms that devour their flesh.

But even here, he had been luckier than me.

To Royce was all over, while I was doomed to be locked in an eternal cycle. Permante snow and cold. I had been kicked out of I felt like heaven and the fallen angel.

The ghost of Christmas present made its appearance in the form of a smell that made me turn the stomach. The atmosphere was impregnated with poinsettias, holly, mistletoe, candy and wax that came from candles. That was the preface of the worst Christmas of my story. However, something told me that the most cruel was coming.

odors A sound came together.

It made me stop dreaming past and fall in the most terrible reality.

I had been destined to live in a home that looked more like a fairy tale palace.

At the moment, I was in a small ramshackle house.

My parents and my brothers, far from perfect, were human beings.

Carlisle, Esme and Edward were perfect, beautiful and inhuman beings straight out of a horror story. They were vampires. And, of course, me too.

always been the darling of my father and spoiled me all my whims. Carlisle was sympathetic but authoritative and not let anyone be fooled by my tantrums.

For my mother, I had been his priority.

Esme, though she treated me gently and I felt sorry for me, handing their care between the two without distinction of any kind make me special.

My brothers, my side, had been negligible. Of those things I looked over my shoulder and saw them for consideration to be blood of my blood. However, they had seen me as if something slightly less than a goddess, and had kissed the ground where he walked.

Edward was the only person to whom my beauty had not moved at all. He had never fallen for it. I was totally indifferent. I do not even treat me as if he admired the most sublime work of art ever achieved and that an art connoisseur would stay hours watching totally enthralled. If he gives me a simple glance, one could see a dull sense of utter apathy. Never know what would be most irritated me Edward: his coldness to my magnificence or that he was a creature more beautiful than me. I felt a pang of jealousy at that reality so obvious.

But for Edward, beauty was a weapon. He never seemed interested in anything that had to with this gift.

Or perhaps, he understood much better than me, that beauty could become a curse for those who got it from.

always have in my mind the question of whether there she sat, with my family, eating turkey for Christmas have been less gracious. Never find the answer.

always be beautiful, immortal, unhappy and lonely for the rest of eternity.

So I was inconceivable that should understand both pseudofelicidad environment that had begun in that house. He saw no logic to celebrate something fully human if we were not. In addition to that there was no reason to celebrate.

Where was the common sense? Was I the only one who looked like?

Well it seemed, because after all, Esme and Edward were busy decorating the house and singing and laughter.

contemptuously, I watched from the corner of his eye while he was placing Esme garlands and poinsettias in every corner of the house, and Edward was responsible for that ridiculous riding fir Ely Carlisle had been cut, so not very legal, and used in the forest as a Christmas tree.

Maybe it was as consistent as he remembered the ridicule that was jumping from corner to corner, putting on Christmas ornaments and candy canes and red candles green with a Santa Claus hat that he had also put Esme in the head, a behavior more like a Santa's helper elf to an alleged adult vampire was supposed to be.

to behave like a toddler, I did not care. But, at least, I would appreciate it ceased to whistle "Jingle Bells."

Edward did not protest at all, but by the smile teasing his lips drew, I knew it would not stop.

On the contrary, increased the sound of the whistle.

Buffet in protest.

-Edward Esme le failed just as a naughty child, "Rosalie does not like that song.

He just shrugged and changed to "Sweet Christmas."

was cursed mentally, when the pace of a human blink, he was in front of me, showing a bright smile. Had to admit that got overshadowed by his handsome face just inches from me, and surprise because of its speed, despite being one of our characteristics.

Seeing as increased her feline smile and was approaching me, until her face was just inches from mine, held my breath and I was embarrassed. What was he intended to do? ...

-Rosalie, "she whispered honeyed- I'm afraid I'll have to kiss for you to become a frog princess. At least you'll be less annoying croaking with your mental purr. He started to get Lips "At the bottom, because you're dying to kiss you ... And this Christmas, you may be lucky, made a gesture with his lips that would kiss me continuously.

- Depart from me, "I tried to push him, but departed quickly.

- Ah, ah, ah! "He shook his head in denial mode," Rose, dear, you have to fulfill the tradition-raised his eyes toward the window and I imitated him. Had hung a sprig of holly and we were just below. "If you give me a kiss, you will have bad luck for the rest of the year.

Ojala only be for the rest of the year!

"Leave me alone-I tried push back, but he deftly slipped jumping from window to window by putting the holly.

I wondered if he had drunk the lion before drinking his blood on the basis of Christmas punch.

- Edward, Rosalie, "Esme called us while carrying a box and sat around the tree," Come, it's time to decorate the Christmas tree, "began to make various ornaments and place them on the branches.

Edward sat next to Esme immediately and began to play with the ornaments until Esme took him from his hands and scolded

"Honey, is impolite to start putting the decorations until we are all "looked at me and turned my head pretending to watch the spectacle of the street.

"The princess joins the mob Edward muttered a grumpy note in his voice. "Do not come to help.

-Rosalie, why do not you come to put the Christmas decorations with us? It is something we usually do as a family. Only it's a shame that Carlisle work so late. Surely, he would have liked to be here.

I concentrated more on my work while trying to look without seeing that all the anger that had accumulated in the body does not escape.

Family "? We could not be a real family as much as you play to be human. I refused to participate in this charade.

snort I was aware of Edward issued to hear my thoughts. Nobody was calling him to pry into my affairs.

- Rosalie? Esme insisted again.

I do not think we should insist more, Esme. "I could guess as Edward shrugged. -We managed.

And between laughs and jokes, which made doliesen my ears and something inside me broke, they focused on their task, performed with dedication fruicióny to place thousands of bells, angels, crystal balls and small scented candles.

Pufff! Do you dare to call that Christmas tree? They should have gone to more meetings of society, then they had seen what was really good.

"A good job," praised Esme to put the star on the tree.

-Magnifico "agreed Edward, but I miss something. We have always put socks on the fireplace for Santa Claus when he arrived, leave us gifts. But I think we've forgotten that detail.

tried to maintain control not to turn around and shout four things. How could be so childish? It was already old enough to believe all that nonsense, telling children that they might be good. My God! How immature!

Even more bizarre was when Esme grinned and left the room to come loaded with a kind of artifact of large wood painted red and brown, and seemed to be in the form of & hellip , "reindeer? ...

... I was beginning to think that the folly was something that was contagious. And at this time.

Edward seemed so delighted that he forgot to read my mind and contaminated with all the poison that gnawed at me.

- You did! "Happy-slapped you made a box to keep the gifts! It's great! "He lunged Esme putting his arms over his shoulders and resting his head in the crook of them.

"I think if we put a box-shaped guiding reindeer sleigh, Santa Claus will bring us happier and more gifts.

Suddenly, Edward pursed the ceñoy bit his lip.

Esme looked at him with concern:

- Is there something wrong, Edward? "Inquired distressed.

- ... In fact, you could have made the box in the shape of an angel, as you had originally planned, Esme, clicked his tongue in mock gesture of anxiety. "Now every time I looked the reindeer, I'll remember all the relatives Rudolph (2) who have sacrificed to feed. This year I ran out of gift.

- Not so, Edward, "Esme kissed him on the temple-Santa Claus knows we've been good. You'll see how we are bringing gifts.

For me it could save my gift. What I really wanted, I grabbed it at the expense of doing and what volveríaa never recovered.

"So I think Santa Claus brought me a player who is in the closet of the office of Carlisle, and is used to simulate another surprise gift.

Esme gave him a strong campion.

- must not mind reading a Santa Claus! "He chided simulating an anger that was far from feeling.

- Oh, "Edward stroked her neck," Not even to tell the queen of ice which is your gift? "It was clear he was referring me.

Esme came back to hit a campion:

- Rosalie much less tell your gift!

corrosive Edward laughed. Sign that would say something against me.

"She cares very little that you have purchased a gift spat venomously. If I had bet had won. "I think he does not care.

merely Esme sigh.

- What? "Protested angrily. She has washed its hands of the whole matter. He would not participate in anything of what we did to celebrate the holidays.

Esme hugged him, and at the bottom of my heart, gave me a pang of jealousy. No one had a contact like that with me.

"It's hard for her. These are his first Christmas with her new condition ... "he reminded in a whisper. "Be patient. Arranging everything will end.

Edward shook his head as if he believed in the words of Esme. Ely was the only thing I had agreed.

A strange smell of vanilla, cinnamon, chocolate limóny delayed flaps of my nose. The smell reminded me of Christmas cookies. I could not believe they were so involved in his role of humans as to make cookies and eat.

- O Cookies must be removed from the oven! "Esme got rid of Edward hug and ran to the kitchen, Edward, is taking the boxes to place cookies!

Oh, no! If they had done!

"Every Christmas, we make cookies to take to the hospital where Carlisle and handed out to patients. At this time, no doctor wants to take care of the sick and Carlisle can not refuse. So we celebrated Christmas with Ely then at twelve o'clock, go home and open gifts. "Edward went first to me, explaining their holiday schedules.

"You have to give me explanations of what you have planned. He snapped harshly.

snorting He just took off a lock of hair with impatience

"For me, golden girl, like you want to rot with all your ghosts, but Carlisle and Esme look forward to them you go. So do us all a favor, stop whining about what we can not and starts to behave more altruistically.

pegasen I felt like a sting that makes me sit up and, in two steps, stood, facing him.

Despite my scary appearance, he was not intimidated and looked at me fiercely. Let me not be intimidated by that and I raised my head proudly showing her that he had no fear not:

"If you do not like what you see in my mind, let's dig into it," he pointed a finger. "Nobody has asked you not metieses as you ought.

"Your thoughts scream too much to be ignored," he scolded. "Anyway, your bitter expression is telling us all ... How can you be so selfish? How can you not stop thinking about yourself? You are not the only one trapped in it, Rosalie. But unlike you, we try to move on and look at this.

- Are you telling me to forget everything I've been for something I do not like to be? "Inquired angrily. -Per if you yourself are the first thing you hate to be in your skin. You're a hypocrite! Therefore, you have no right to tell me how I should behave!

- try to be happy about Carlisle and Esme! "He shouted" They deserve to have a Christmas conditions. And I will not let you ruin it all for your tantrums and spoiled brat.

- do not let nobody tell me these things! "I warned.

Edward laughed sarcastically

"There's always a first time for something, right?" He warned. "And I'm afraid, dear, that it will not be the last time. If you like to recreate in your own grief and lick your wounds, for me great. Soon you will realize that surround the ghost of Christmas past is not the best company. You run the risk of ending up completely alone. But try not to infect others all your rage when we want to be at peace.

"To believe you a good mind-reader, I see you've given none. "I defended myself. "You have no idea how I feel. Do not even think you care.

"Right," confirmed, "I do not care.

- Go to hell, "I growled.

Edward was about to retort something, when Esme, with a tray of cookies, took part in our discussion:

"Boys, it is good to discuss at Christmas, they scold us or as if we we tried two schoolboys. - Do you know what happened?

As always, the smart aleck of Edward had to open its huge mouth first:

"Here, the princess that everything he touches turns to gold, I just put eyes at my new nickname," not happy with the way to celebrate our Christmas, and until the wreck and will not stop, "he accused.

"Edward," Esme drawled as if taking a sermon that was repeated thousands of times, "remember what I said earlier.

"I know, He started nervously gesturing and raising of his voice, "but she is not getting easier. Want something you can not have. Can you imagine it going with us to distribute biscuits? We will embitter existence! And the kids are going to choke him cookies ... "he sighed. "I'm hoping that Santa Claus comes at midnight to give it to Ely to take her to the North Pole. But I think if I do this, I risk not having Christmas presents in a hundred years.

Were said I had to deliver them cookies? Oh, no! Over my dead body!

"It's a joke, right?" I prayed that it was only a bluff. I could not do that. I could not hang out with the mob ... and much less, if they were human. Only a few months ago I was a vampire.

-Carlisle believes that if you keep an eye on long enough, you'll control. "Edward answered my thoughts. Then, my worst fears were realized.

I had to stoop to the level of those unfortunates. I, Rosalie Hale, a year earlier would have to ignore me as I walk the streets with my trendy clothes and my bags full of gifts and they looked at me as if an angel had left in its wake .

Somebody wake me from this nightmare!

Edward curled his lips into a smile of satisfaction as he dictated my decision:

- Do not complain so much! "Pretended to make a stew. 'I watch you touched so nothing happens. And so the way I will make sure that you will not disappoint the children by telling them that Santa Claus is only a figment of parents to behave at Christmas. You're not going to spoil anyone over night!

I have no intention to spoil anyone's night, because I'm not going anywhere. "I informed. "All this has nothing to do with me.

- How you are not going to go, Rosalie? "Asked Esme worried. "This is something we do as a family and you are part of the family.

"But I do not want to do this. "I tried to suppress a stamp on the wooden floor. "I'm not used to doing anything that you do and your plans to celebrate ... I look ridiculous. First, I do not think it has anything to celebrate. Also, you did what you wanted not consult me for me ... That's not fair!

"Sorry to tell you, Rosalie, but things are not so. "The normally sweet face Esme, acquired hard-featured and impersonal voice was cold, a sign that she was upset. Which I cared little, to say nothing. "We've been all week imploring you and asking you to help us with all the preparations. We went to buy gifts and ornaments, went to the forest to find a suitable tree, we had to resign ourselves to cooking to make cookies, I've been putting together this wooden box, 'said the Reindeer was standing Christmas tree, which provided the discussion with a fake smile painted with a black brush , "for a week to be more original when it comes to receiving gifts, we've cleaned, collected and decorated the house for weeks been planning this day. In all these actions, we have asked opinióny advice but have decided not only not help, but also impedimentos. He tried to approach me, toward conciliatory, but I turned him down in a quick gesture movimiento. "Still, I would be thrilled if you were, but we'll respect you if you decide you do not. But I hope you enter razóny understand, that even so, there is much to celebrate.

was about to reply that I had nothing to celebrate, when the door opened and Carlisle appeared at home, before the usual time.

"It's just a moment. He apologized while drew to a poor woman admiring the decor. "I'd forgotten to pick one thing and go back to the query. He kissed the forehead of Esme and her smile froze when he saw our faces. - Has something bad happened while I was away?

"Nothing. "Edward shrugged his shoulders as he spoke with irritable indifference. "I've told Rosalie that you'll dress up as Santa Claus and has panicked.

Carlisle looked at me piercingly, and I the urge to look away.

-Rosalie, is there a problem? "Said a cordial manner.

I took the plunge and decided to say everything I had saved:

"This is nonsense. We are celebrating something we do not feel at all.

- What you do not feel at all? "Carlisle put his arm around the shoulders of Esme without removing his gaze from me. By their expressions, I realized that he also supported this circus.

"I'm not happy, I have no reason to celebrate.

- What if you think this, Rosalie? "Carlisle tried to reason with me. "As bad as they may seem that things are going, there will be something we should celebrate. In life there are small gaps between the clouds of happiness. And every one of those clear, it is worth to be celebrated. I know how you feel. I've been thinking the same thing for two hundred years until I found my reason to celebrate. He put his arm toward him to attract Edward. "Maybe we have been wronged, and we have not taken into account ...

- unjust, anything," interrupted Edward, protesting. "We had all sorts of considerations with her, Carlisle. Does not seem right that we should change our habits and his whims.

-Edward, - Carlisle silenced him in a reasoned, "maybe we should have asked him if he wanted to do something special for Christmas. "This time he addressed me. - Mistakenly thought you'd like to celebrate our way, besides it's your first Christmas with us and your circumstances ... ... "snorted to take off a lock of my hair so impatient ... I I'm so sorry. We have not thought about what you like. Maybe by next year, we can do something else according to your taste. When all is said and done, that whatever we do just to be together.

isolated I felt all alone in front of them. Were not they supposed that Carlisle was the most sensible? What did support all this nonsense?

All accumulated sense of anxiety in my body became angry, and unable to bear as it gnawed at me, I decided to expel all foreign:

- Me refuse to pretend something I'm not! I'm not a girl that you have to say to smile when you just want to mourn, "I shouted with all the strength that allowed me my lungs without exceeding the threshold of pain- The holidays are not for us! We are not human! The monsters have no right to be happy !...- I struck me and tried to go ahead with the words locked "... I've done nothing to deserve all this. I did not ask a child to become a tale terror. There was no right to take away a life.

"You know who is guilty of everything that's wrong. "Edward. His voice was cold impersonal not denote anger with her eyes shining. "The same person who promised you the sky at your feet, was what led you to what you are now. We have no guilt, Carlisle thought you deserved a second chance and why you're here, bothersome Christmas. You should be grateful, because not everyone has been granted second opportunities.

"Second chance? This was not a chance. It was a conviction ...

... How to make them understand that this event was not for us?

I looked everywhere and I found the happy look of wood that Rudolph. And I found that the fireplace was lit. Something crossed my mind. If they did not want to understand the good that we could not celebrate the holidays, would him understand the hard way.

And before I read Edward's mind and had time to act, I moved quickly to Rudolph and I threw a kick to the fireplace, where after breaking in thousands Chip, I got the smell of burnt wood and paint to the sound of the cry of anguish from Esme.

was absolutely not within me, until an incredibly painful pressure fell on my wrist. It was so intense that my body bowed up rotate it, and meet face to face with Edward with the features of his face contracted by rage.

I shook violently spitting the words full of anger:

"Until you have not stopped, have not been happy, right?" His breath burned my face. I took this as he was furious. And I had to admit, I was afraid. - Really, I'm glad! I'm glad my heart! ... Because thanks you, this Christmas we will be a little more miserable than they already are in day everyday!

- You're hurting me! "I protested in pain.

Edward dropped my wrist and gave me a big push that made me lose balance and fall backward to the ground.

As a reflex, I turned my head to force him to face Ely excuse for behaving like a real brute. But when my eyes were stuck in theirs, I got an immensity of feeling that knotted my throat and I still made my heart was weighed as much as lead.

Of course there was anger, but what I was magnetized to the ground, getting it was unable to move from there, it was the sorrow decepcióny for having broken the only way exhaust to touch the hope that something good in this life.

I was struck by lightning and, accumulating in my own anger and resentment, I added the horrible feeling fault.

More than ever, I wished with all my strength, that night he was about to die, I had found Carlisle and wounded my body had been buried by snow.

"I think that is the only sensible thing you've thought about this day. "The cruelty that Edward's voice exuded by auction ended. Knew what was going to say, but I did no move to defend. He was right, so I decided to wait with the patient sentence that I say. "It's the stupidest idea that Carlisle has happened to his more than two hundred years. If I had not saved, now, would be peaceful. Every time I think people better than you has died without being able to be offered this opportunity ... "She did not finish and a quick turn me back again and went to his room in two strides .

slammed so hard he got that part of the living room wall cracks, and a couple of Christmas ornaments are dropped to the ground and shattered hiciesen.

Carlisle and Esme watched the show with somber faces and not knowing what to do or say. Of course I did not want your pity! For me it would become the greatest of insults.

I regained strength to get up and dealing with them, I shouted, in a spasm that threatened to erupt:

- you know he's right, "I screamed with pain so similar that could have gone through anger-I do anything I asked you! If hubieseis that night they found me, it would be over! No one deserves this! ...

"Well it's a shame you think so, Rosalie. "I interrupted Carlisle and grieved quietly, which made me feel even more miserable than all the insults that Edward had poured over me. "Because I never regret I have saved you that night. And even now, do not see the light in the tunnel, there are always reasons that compel us to move forward. Despite everything you think, do not deserve to miss it because you had an infamous your life taken too soon.

I shook my head from side to side like a little girl. I did not want to keep listening. The walls of the house started shaking and I felt claustrophobic. Needed air right now. No more words to break my shell and hiciesen blow up all my defenses. Needed to get out now.

was simple: it was to walk and not look back ever. Without realizing it, I was walking to nowhere, no coat and my hair scattered by the wind, while snowflakes around me.