Endlessly.
"The soul of
Endlessly.
"The soul of man is like water. Comes from the sky, rises into the sky and the earth becomes despuésa in an eternal cycle. I'm sure I've been here, as I am now, a thousand times before, and I go back a thousand times more "
Goethe.
"Live so that you get to want to live again, that's your duty, because relive anyway! "
Nietzche.
BELLA SWAN.
"Bella" smiled happy to hear Edward's voice again.
"Yes?"
"Do not, please," I pleaded with anguish and anger in his velvety voice. I remembered that was put well when I was very anxious.
ignored him as I prepared to jump. The rain whipped and swirled around me.
"Do not do it," I plead again. In vain.
"You wanted it to be human" I reminded him. " Well, look at me"
"Please. Do it for me "
" is the only way you're with me "
" Please. " was a whisper in the rain that fell like a curtain of water, turned my hair and my clothes soaked.
I stood on tiptoe.
"No!" , forbade me furious.
smiled raising his arms as if to pull my head and raised my face to the rain.
"You promised me," tried to cling to my words. "You promised to be safe "
"Can not keep a promise to a lying, Edward" I had the courage to reproach him.
With those words, I bent down, crouching to take more boost ... and jumped off the cliff.
"No!" distressed Edward roared.
"Yes, I screamed jubilant, while the fall and gravity acting on my body, but surely it passed through the dark surface of the water darker and sink it. And there was nothing left nothing. My body was surrounded by cold water. It made the hole in my chest is enlarged by the memory of Edward's cold arms on my skin. His heart had proved so treacherous as the sea. These were the thoughts that came over me as the rush of adrenaline and I was stabilizing caíay fell deeper. I should not allow it. I made the mistake of not waiting for Jacob to jump, to feel too smug about myself and above all I should never underestimate the magnitude of the storm.
But it was too late to fight the waves playing with my body, ignoring my clumsy efforts to try to come to the surface.
current caught me and was not going to lose this battle.
Everything went black and despite rebel and try to move arms and legs with insistence, he soon realized it was a puppet in the ocean. Opened his mouth to try to get some air, but all I was getting was that my lungs to fill with water more quickly. Every effort was useless. I was not going to survive this. I fully assumed and the vision of an angel I confirmed it. The truth that I would have liked to devote myself my mischievous smile that made my heart come out of the chest, but angry at him through clenched teeth, the nostrils dilated, and the brightness of his black eyes look out with intensity I also value. I did not expect out of it. I owed that after so much suffering.
"Bella, still swimming," I urged her voice.
Instead of heeding my mind and my body agreed to drop the arms to the side of my body and stop moving the legs.
"Damn it, Bella!" , swore angry to see that I behaved as expected, "Fight!"
"No" , I rebelled. I did not want a life if he was not there.
"Struggle"
"If I fight and live, I will not see"
Me refused to fight anymore. I felt happy as never had been in recent months. Jacob even had been able to fill that void.
They said when you were at death's door, your whole life passed before your eyes like a movie. In my association did not. Material has not had enough in my life for a great movie. Had been brief and not very exploited. Deserved only relegated from oblivion a few months. The happiest.
If I died, I had lived with Edward would too. Although she no longer loved me, or never I had, what I felt had indeed existed and deserved to be saved.
And while my lungs were collapsed and burned me gasping for breath, and leg cramps invaded me, I wished with all my might have a chance for Edward and the world knew As he had loved.
Tick tock, tick tock ...
My heart rebelled after so many months now to keep still. A little late.
Tick tock, tick ...
There was no pain. Just happiness.
Tic, tac ...
My mind and body are dissociated and the image of Edward sobbing melted into nothingness.
Tic ...
One last wish is blurred with the waves.
"I want my love story survive the space and time"
...
EDWARD CULLEN.
Aro I had not been helpful in this. No matter. He knew how to make them angry. Even he could not ignore that one of his subjects to ride roughshod one of their beloved rules. And fewer still the golden rule that every vampire must comply.
And at that moment, where my shirt was my feet and the sunlight trying to lighten my skin, composed of dead cells, was when I was going to violate our most sacred law and thousands of people celebrating the day of San Marcos, would witness a show ever forget. Razóny Carlisle had expected everything to be rapid.
was absurd to think that I was allocated the same place where Bella had gone after his suicide. Since I tasted the first drop of blood, the place I had been vetoed. But I did not care.
was sure of one thing.
I could not stay longer in this world like an insect crawling and feeling every bit of my innermost being was going slowly and rotting off ; NDOS me. Was not affiliated to pain. Would not survive in a world where she was not.
While she was alive there was still hope. Alice had been right in everything, and leaving me by my impulses selfish, he had returned to Forks, with their tails between their legs, savoring the bittersweet taste of defeat and weakness. Had entered the sanctuary of his room to watch her sleep, safe and sound, and have waited until chocolate colored eyes had been opened and had noticed me. Then he had begged again and again to forgive me. I do not have mattered knelt at his feet, as long as you have seen his face a smile of absolute pardon. And then to be talking for hours until dawn. At this point I regretted not having been selfish and Bella have dragged me to an eternal night, transforming an aberration of what I myself was. To imagine her as cold as a piece of ice and standing like a stone, but my favorite song sounded in his chest and his mind was concentrated only in the mind of a predator, but breathing deeply and safe in my hands I felt there was more conviction than I uttered that forest of Forks, stabbing forever. Crawling in the motels of the world and ruminate my grief, would not call it survival. At heart felt gratitude to Rosalie for being honest and point blank tell the truth, calling instead to take the overprotective and pathetic Carlisle and Esme, although their motives were not correct until the last moment she was thinking.
But thanks to that impulse, had ended with a slow agony that had lasted months and could not have been extended. Or surrender or die. I myself had signed our condemnation. If Bella was under a marble slab and let the worms devour her body after all the years they become dust, leaving nothing that could not prove it, was my fault. I should be strong and to have away from me. Or I should be weak and to have given an eternal night.
no longer worth complaining about what had happened and whatever happens in the future. Simply did not exist. And that idea of mocking me so much in the past, really began to panic.
As he walked toward the center of the plaza and in my mind would slip insignificant whispers of the Volturi guard, begging to return to the shade and go talk to Aro, I came a talk to the head I had with Carlisle and his belief that for us too damn a soul.
I wish that he were here with me and I had caught her hand to encourage me. I wish that I had whispered in his ear that it was unlikely but it was sweet as honey.
sun rays crashing into my body and I felt no warmth in them. He was already beyond good and evil.
From all that I would have regretted more hundred years of history, only he did something that in these last moments might seem trivial.
For a moment I wished with all my being that Carlisle had not been wrong and that I had soul. My last request as he was dying for a moment that anything could survive me and to tell Bella because I acted as I acted and then retire into the shadows for all eternity.
did not ask to be forgiven. I just wanted that the most valuable person in my world, knew how much he had loved this monster.
"Just a chance" , I prayed to any entity, benevolent, which had a negligible time for me to beg, while the Volturi dragged me to start with process.
"Edward ..." His voice, calling me, I served as a placebo to the death I expected as I felt little bit like my body was dismembered and the pain numbed me ...
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